A New Leaf

I was so excited and counting down to the days and hours to see my boyfriend Oct. 27th. So many factors could of delayed it. I had a call back for a Non-Union commercial that would air in France only,(so I can do that) but the day of the call-back I needed to be at work in Long Beach for the Womans Conference during the same time. The earliest casting and clients were seeing people were 11:15am and I had to be in Long Beach by 12:30pm. Let's say it never happened. THe audition anyway, I tried, I got there by 11am and gave my self to be seen by 11:30am or I was out. The clients weren't even there yet, keeping up the line of people waiting to be seen and I really had to go. I had to work, I got bills to pay, very sad but that's life. Also even if I did get the commercial it was shooting on Thursday and Friday Night when I was supposed to be in Arizona by then with my boyfriend at the ATC, very big deal for him and I had been looking forward to it since I meet him I guess, that's when he mentioned he wanted me to go with him. So it was Monday and I was flying out Wednesday, I couldn't do it to him.

My friend from High School just so happens to live across the street from me, had his little baby girl in the front seat of his Toyota truck and I was in the middle with my lugguage in the back on my way to see Chris. I almost didn't have a ride but he at the last moment texted me saying he could take me to the airport. Thank you JEsus! Right when I was ordering a shuttle to pick me up. Credit Card had went through and everything. The lady was so sweet she got the dispatcher to cancel it for me.
Now at the airport, I see a old dancer friend, a salsa instructor. I'm sashaing in with my purse and starbucks coffee canister. I forgot that I was going to the airport. Makeup bag in purse ready to apply when I landed. Salsa guy and I catch eyes, very randon but not really it's LA or Burbank. He says he going to Vegas for a friends bacholar party and I say I'm seeing my boyfriend, and that I will be moving in the NEw Year. I'm sure he was thinking okay randon but whatever.

Just landed and I text Chris just that, going to lugguage. He says he's almost there, I'm not tripping cause I gotta go to lugguage and go to the bathroom to get ready. I got my lugguage and text him I'm out side terminal 1 Southwest. He's like where I'm like I'm right here. I want to dig in my bag to get some lotion but I don't want to open it up on the side on the street so I just stand there going through my phone. I see Chris walking up in his uniform all hard on a mission and I'm happy to see him. He hugs me and kisses me really long. It was weird to me cause I know we usually do that when I'm leaving not coming. Then he takes my hand and I say, I need lotion with a hesitant face. He laughs and pulls out a ring and puts it on my finger. I couldn't believe it after all we had been talking about I just felt in shock, numb, so distached. I eventually said YES!!! after he was like, "Okay!?" I said, "Well you didn't ask" Then he asks, "Will You Marry Me" Oh my goodness. YES again for reading pleasure. So the walk back to the car was so awkward, it wasn't all spectacluar, no music playing in background. We went to get gas and I was hungry, but I love him. He's so sweet, so wonderful to me and perfect for me. I can go on and on and on with details but Let's just say I'm engaged now.

Blah Blah Blah Blah

My head is feeling cloudy because I didn't make my coffee today. I thought I'd take a break from it and push through the day without it. I'm not tired just not influenced. Other than that I feel good, my abs are tight and I'm not cold nor hot nor hungry. I feel like a little baby all my needs are meet besides my bills. Yuck. I'm on a public computer in a Tucson AZ library and it's telling me I had 5 minutes left and it gave me the option to have 10 extra minutes so that gives me 15 total minutes; that would never happen in an Los Angeles public library. People would be waiting, breathing down my neck if I had 5 minutes left on a computer. Can't believe I'm wasting my minutes saying all this.

So story structure is what I'm having problems with in writing and I have gone to the source of the internet for help. I think I got the idea while I figured it out. I need to watch a show which was Burn Notice of my choice and write down what happens in each scene. I got distracted yesterday though by the damn internet. So won't do that again today. Writing this is my booster to get cracken. I need to have A, B and maybe even C plots. My characters need to live freely and all be individuals not sound the same. I need to stay up at night when my boyfriend goes to sleep and do the damn thing to. Back to structure, I need to... 10 minutes now.... leave each scene with cliff hangers that lead or drive into the next scene. I just remembered, I can fully write out plot A, scene for scene then fill in the scenes with plot B. Hallelujah!!! I've made a break through that won't make me stagnent. It's almost time for lunch and I need a #2 pencil to write with.

ARIZONA

I am on day 10 now in Arizona and everything seems to be geling into place. I'm spending time with my boyfriend that lives here for a month. I planned this out for 2 months now to see how everything works out and so far so good. I'm not all anxious and thinking about LA and what I'm missing although I'm watching all the commercials I've auditioned for, got called back but didn't get it but it's okay. I'm due for some major commercials to come this fall. I will be in full swing and ready to work. Since I've been here I've been NOT WORKING, watching tv, eating, doing yoga and working out at the gym. It's been nice to be home and be with my boyfriend. I haven't driven my own car for 10 days so weird or really driving at all, his car a little yes but not much driving for me.

Before I left I went to a workshop at AFI for commercials and it wasn't bad. I was nice to get a refresher and feel creative even though I've been auditioning a lot but I just haven't been in class at all and I really want to be but just can't juggle all the expenses of LA. In the begining of the workshop a girl stood up and said she had to leave because she had a call back. The guy teaching the class asked what the audition was for and she said California Travel and I was like where's my call back. SO I kept looking at my phone for a missed call or text and finally I got the text from my manager that I had a call back too. I was so excited to get the call back I just knew it was mine. The audition was just the day before and the camera opt said I played the line the best out of everyone so I was definitely confident but humble and willing to stay on my A Game.
So I get to the audition and I sign in and I'm feeling good not cocky but good. Talkong to other girls, making small talk about who they train with, but I was geniunely interested and I was waiting for a good hour before they got to me. Throughout the whole thing I stayed cool and understanding but I was seeing other girls go in before me that came after me and it worst part was being grouped with a girl that I didn't talk to at all which isn't bad but not really good cause I was worried we would't have any chemistry of a friendship if needed. So I made small talk and we got to know each other and she was beautiful.
We go in the room and the director asked if we waited a long time... I'm thinking yea and I said yea... why did I say the truth... then I said but I understand their are a lot of characters you need to cast. Then the camera opt guy said he's a director that cares, I looked at him for a minute and looked at his spiffy jacket and cool hair cut and I said "Your hair shows" why did I say that.... I went a little to far maybe I don't know. The casting director looked at the director and the add guy smiled and the camera opt guy laughed then the director said, "That was a compliment with a diss" I was like that wasn't a diss not at all.
I did the audition and the director wanted me to do a few different takes and I did and it was a good audition. Then the other girl did the audition and she took my directions and did it I guess well. I don't know who booked it. I didn't but I have a feeling she got it. She was mixed too but she had sandy color hair and had blue eyes and was long and skinny. So for some reason she was just prettier and it's so annoying. I just wonder who got it and we shall see.

Dance

This past Saturday I took a dance class with Margurite Derricks. It was a big challenge since I hadn't been in a class in a while but I got in the grove of it. She says dance is back, she means technique. She had us attempt triple turns, is she for real. I was in class with a bunch of teenagers, I felt so old. Looking at them I can now look back at that age not knowing what my future will be as a dancer. Its crazy being old enough to do that. I at one point wanted to cry that I was even having that thought, that I can look back and see things I couldn't before. I was hanging in there and needed to be there that day. Afterwards I was spent, my body had been beat up bad. Way over exerted myself. It was good, need to take a turns class now more often and plan on it. I will master these turns and get in control of my body. THese are thoughts to myself if you don't understand dance lingo. Just know we move about but we know where we are moving our bodies, it's all planned out and has been done many times before so therefore we are control freaks, it must be perfect as well as everything else in our lives. So yes I am a type A person.

Today I had a private session with a girl I meet on set of a commercial, she is a massage therapist and she said she would offer me massages if I could teach her how to dance. So today was our first session and she did so well. I'm so happy I could help her. She has a great body to use and it probablly only makes it easier. More to come with this, I am very hopeful that these knots in my blades will go away.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!

I have been really backed up with my blogs since my last one I have been working everyday with maybe a day off between last job and this past weekend which was my Birthday weekend. I worked in Huntington Beach and stayed with my cusion and meet some really great people. They were a lot of fun and it was really good to hang out briefly with my Cuz Miley. I hope we can hang out more often. Then the following weekend I was Blessed to work with the same group of people in San Diego as well. We were doing a promo for KIN a new phone offered at Verizon. The first day we did the training we were really stoked about playing with the phone and all the new attributes it had to offer, like the cloud networking and instant gratification with updating and reading Tweet and Facebook updates. So basically if your a social network junkie you would be even more so on this phone. It was cute too but I don't know why I didn't realize untill the last weekend I worked that it didn't have a calculoter and that's pretty important to me. While I'm bored working these jobs I'm calculating how much money I will be making and I can't do that or out shopping calculatilng what I'm spending and you get the idea. Moving along my manager Chris was a hoot and Adam yelling out Chicken dinner for every winner that got a new KIN phone was the highlight of the day so much we continued saying it the weekend in San Diego eventhou it wasn't the same as he did it. Winner Winner Chicken Dinner will never be the same!

So I made a lot of money and was so blessed to be able to do so but I was really bummed from turning down a part in a movie to work in San Diego. I already agreed to work and thought I had nothing to do then last minute Thursday before I leave for San Diego on Friday morning I get the offer. Just like that it was taken away too. So bummed not sure if I made the right decision but I needed to work. God really works in mysterious ways. I'm still not sure if I made the wrong decison or the safe decision. I'm not usually a safe person but the older I get I see I am turning into that person. Responsibility is a bitch. I guess it's apart of growing up, doing things you don't really want to. I made some great relationships with people on the set and working in San Diego and Huntington Beach so I just hope fruits of those labors will prosper into ripe fruit falling of the tree very soon. Working a day for free on a set on my day off then getting a part in a movie then getting it taken away and making money doing something that is strangely fun but not my passion is all apart of life... just to repeat in a more detailed way the same statement about fruit and labor thing. Lol.

Now for my birthday.... it was such a big hoopla making plans with my friends, finding the restaurant, time and cordinating all of it was such a headache. The NBA Finals was going on and who knew the games were going to go to 7 games, my lord. The last game is when I just happened to make plans for dinner at 8pm too. Great. So I changed the location like 3 times finally settling. Long story short it all worked out even tho Florinda didn't make it which I feel very bad about but will have to make it up to her. My great friends were there and so blessed to have great friends in my life and even a new friend stopped by and celebrated with me, MEgan. I meet her in San Francisco working the AUA gig. SHe's great and will be kicking it more often and hopefully working together more often as well. It's so good to meet great chicks that aren't insecure and weird. It seems like regular people have more fun because they know themselves and are secure with who they are. Not trying to impress someone or take take take from someone. Being in Hollywood really is kind of miserable sometimes. People are either doing what they love and not happy or people are not doing it yet what they love and are miserable. I'm sure there are people who are happy doing what they love too but there's always a price to pay always!

I pack and last minute file a bankruptcy paper to the Federal court house and get home with time to get to airport on time and I'm ready to see my bo in Pheonix AZ. So happy to see him and spend time with him. He is so wonderful to me. We stayed in a realy nice Golf Resort and had dinner in a wonderful top top restuarant in Scottsdale and drank some good wine. In my head I was complaining about the Resort cause it looked like a timeshare and reminded me of my dad, just the golf thing, yuck. Then the spa, I want to much and need to be happy with anything at all really. I mentally had to check myself and I did. I appreciate him so much and truely love him. It feels good to be loved back. My dad called and told me the story of how I was born again and my mom said she made her diamonds from her wedding ring into earing for me so I felt very whole on my Birthday, truely blessed. Now back in LA on the grind.

LAX 2 SFO & DELAYED

I am at LAX right now on my mini hp with my Fitness Magazine InTouch Magazine and my BBM and my Mc'D's coffee and Cinnamon melt and ready for the night ahead or morning ahead of me. My flight has been delayed as I wait for it's arrival or boarding. Whatever the fuck happened I don't care just can't believe I can't take Bart home cause it stops running to Pitsburg/BayPoint at 11:54PM. I'm ass out for real and I'm not paying for a hundred dollar shuttle. My ass will be at the SFO airport till the crack of dawn and get my ass on the damn Bart train. Wow! a real first for everything. As I cuss up in here online and in my mind I praise God for his Test as I fail it right now. Lord please don't tell me I'm failing it, I repent too you. I would delete and rewrite right now but it's already been said in my heart and mind anyway. I'm calm and cool about the situation, this just shows God is really making sure I belong to him cause there really isn't any reason for this to be happening to me along with all the other dumb stuff that's been going on in the personal world I live in. Gonna knock it out and earn some strips in this AM. I'm gonna book something great might I add. I have no idea what it is but I know it's coming. I'm not gonna press it either. Just doing what I gotta do. Work, work, work, the many jobs I have and keep my mind straight and love the people I love and be ready. I have a busy work load ahead of me for the next week in SF and more to come the week when I get back. It's what I wanted and I got it. Thank you Jesus for that! I pray it keeps coming just in the form of acting on some Network, Cable and Studio sets/lots/locations. Can't wait!!!!!

An audition I had way back when last year is about to come to fruitation as well. Writer/Director hit me up and asked if I would play another character than I auditioned for but it's all good. They hadn't yet shoot it and he still had me in mind, I think anyway. I really would rather have the lead role of course but maybe this was meant to be right now.... and my delayed flight is still late. WOW!!!!!

Tour of California

Day three starts in a few hours for me on this Tour of eight days and there's one day left. I've been to Bakersfield Thursday and Big Bear yesterday and Los Angeles today, which is Saturday and the last day will be in Westlake Village. Very interesting seeing a bicycle race, I'm working with Lance Armstrong's Sponsor Radio Shack and LiveStrong Foundation is associated with us as well. Sad what happened in Bakersfield that he fell off bike and was injured and had to leave the Tour in the second half of it. Well I hope I get encouraged to cycle myself, I don't think I want to ride like they do but it looks like fun and it's beautiful to be in nature like we have.

The people I've working with could be a little more pro-active but maybe they are tired I know I am. The Tent is supper easy, we got phones and cameras on display, picture booth, laptops up to use, phone charger stations and large flat screen tv's to watch the life feeds and race. It's a chill event, shouldn't have any reason to be in a bad mood but the day to day things of five letter word like BILLS really ruins my day. No time to make calls and when you get time on your 30min break nothing get's accomplished, you'd like to go pee and eat and you are while holding a phone to your ear by your shoulder. I really need a ear piece again, definitely next on list then Flip Camera. Always something new to get or want and then another freakin Bill. My alarm just alarmed me it's time to get up so that is what I will end on this morning.

Latin DVD

So on Saturday I was thinking I only had a table read from 1-3pm so I asked my sister to work for me doing a demo promo for Oil Olay at a Sam's Club in Santa Clarita so I was going to get a ride to the read so I could go and my sister would borrow my car. One thing after another I had a dance gig for a Latin Artist Flex from 5-7pm then a lawyer I work for wanted me to pass out flyers at a few Lofts downtown. I said I could only do it in the morning. Then I was needed to help choregraph girls for this Latin DVD and that was going to be an all day thing but I had my table read. That was the whole big important thing for me. SO I ended up renting a car Friday night cause I had to get everything done on Saturday.

The plan was to rent a car for the day so I can get all my work done and my sister was going to take my car so she can work for me as well. Of course she was going to have that check when it came. I just had already committed and didn't want to back out and she could use the cash.

Also the only place I could rent a car after hours was at the airport so my and my sister drove down to Hertz like 10pm and of all places I run into an old friend from High School and he really hooked it up for me. I got the dopest car, made me want another car and I really thought I liked my car but I missed having leather seats that warmed up and real power when I drove. It was the Volvo from Twilight for anyone that really liked that movie.

Anyways the next day went really good, early morning meet up with lawyer got flyers to pass out. Got through the front door of Lofts when it had security. The set was around the corner from Lofts downtown and meet up with Lorena to go over chorography even though we didn't have that much time for me to have it down at all. I was gonna have to wing it. Left to the table read, got there barely on time and the read was a little shakey for me at first then it got good, really good. I felt the writer/director knew I made the character come to life. Left the table read on time got food and went back to set.

Had to wing the choreography with the girls that mind you can't dance. It's a booty shake DVD so I was doing to much for them and by the time the director called us to set. I had to change everything, I had to dance the whole time screaming 5,6,7,8....1,2,3,4,5,6,7,8 over and over and over. My throat was so raw and sore by the end of the night. I know the girls were tired dropping it like it's Hot too. I will just say the director was an intresting piece of work. I never got a chance to walk away for water or a pee break.

Then when we finally got done with the first song I was looking for my computer and I couldn't believe I couldn't find it anywhere nor my bag with my car rental keys. I was livid. I didn't really flip out but I was cursing, when I normally wouldn't be. For about 3hours we couldn't find them they were gone. I had to call Hertz and they said the car had to be towed.... NoOOOO! that means I had to pay for it. I got the car towed and watch 30min later this dude takes me over the the bar behind the Redbull machine Behind a box where my bag and computer was. I couldn't believe it. At least I found it but I was already tired but the stress that put me through was way too much. I was so done by Sunday Morning for Mothers Day. Busy Busy BUsy!

My First Blog

Well after having so many opinions that people either hate or love I've decided to add my two sense to the internet space. I'm very passionate about a lot of things, food, fashion, beauty products, fitness, politics, and acting. Things I want to explore more is traveling and having time to read up everything and maybe art. Never really cared about art or poetry but whenever I hear good poetry I'm into it. An old roommate is a Poet and actually pretty good, he made me appreciate it a little more. Also writing, I wish I could have nothing else to do but worry about writing for a deadline for something important. I create my own deadlines but it's usually have to do with daily tasks and if I finished reading whichever book I've started. That drives me crazy to not finish something. I wake up in the middle of the night because I didn't finish something. It's crazy, I have to many things I want to do and not enough time to do it. By the time I'm done with my day I'm exhausted and so ready for sleep, I can't imagine having a family to take care of as well, which I want but some of these passions would definitely have to be put in priority. So back to my task list for the day. It's 9:16AM and I've just had my coffee and I've texted my friend that I want to see her before she moves so trying to squeeze that time in after or before my call-back. First pray, read, stretch and work on some coreography oh and find out how to get this footage of me dancing to a director for a project. Busy Busy Busy.